I realise that my last post could possibly come across more than a little maudlin and after an email conversation with Julia from the Marmalade Kiss I realise that I may have mislead you all somewhat, so I want to set the record straight.
I have been a practicing Pagan for over 13 years now, it is an important element of my life and it shapes the way I think. The reason I have started blogging is more about starting as a complete newbie on the craft side of things and trying to improve my green and frugal attempts and to write about them from a Pagan point of view.
What has changed for me now is I have left a job which was at odds with my personal beliefs and I am now trying to be more congruent with myself on every aspect of my life. I make my own beauty products, including making soap and conditioning my hair with vinegar, I try to go by public transport if at all possible (its not always that easy outside of London) and I have made aspects of my life local, where I can walk or cycle a lot of the time.
Growing my own food and trying to be more aware of where food comes from is important to me, but I know I have a long way to go on this.
I try to buy fairtrade clothes where possible, along with ethical products for things like makeup and that’s if I decide to buy anything in the first place – I am trying to reduce my wants. Admittedly part of that has been a financial necessity, but I have been grateful for the wake up call. I am sure losing my job was a push from the Gods to put my money where my mouth was (ha!) for once and to make these changes I have been wishing and moaning about for years.
And yet, as I said in my last post I feel like this isn’t enough and I can do better. Some of you commented I shouldn’t be so hard on myself, or enjoy slowing down to look around and see what I would normally miss out on. Which I try to do. Reading Small Wonder by Barbara Kingsolver I came across this quote:
I’m skeptical of evangelism, so I’m not going to have a tent revival here. But if you’ve come with me this far, you are in some sense a fellow traveler, and I’m glad for your company. In this congregation we dont confess or sit around changing “we are not worthy”; we must do what we can and trust that the effort matters.
I am going to try to take this to heart. Interestingly I got this book from the library after a recommendation on one of the blogs I read, I’ve forgotten which, but please let me know if its from you.
I am glad for your company – one reason I started this blog was to be part of this wider online community we have. I had been a long time lurker and it took me ages to pluck up the courage to comment, let alone post. So, please post, even if you are a lurker and you wouldn’t normally, you have no idea how much your comments mean to me.