Sorry it has been such a long time since I posted. I hadn’t intended it to be, but it has been less than you think – my last post didn’t turn up in my RSS feeds, so there is a chance that it hasn’t in yours either. Check it out here.
I have been getting my head around being a teacher and phew it has been very hard. I knew this was a rough school, but I hadn’t realised quite what this meant in reality. I have been actually scared on one occasion and reduced to tears twice already. And I am not a teary sort of person. I have been thoroughly astounded by the rudeness of the children and shocked by their behaviour. Then I find out their home background and it all becomes startlingly clear.
Since I left my parent’s house 13 years ago I have lived in two different red light districts (not intentionally I found out afterwards!), one in a scummy, damp bedsit in Huddersfield, one in the heart of Brixton. I have also lived in a rough bit of Slough and the East End of London too, again in the rough bit, not the swanky bit and now I am living in a not very nice bit of Essex. And in all of these places I never encountered children very much, or at least they hadn’t cropped up on my radar. I guess even though I have lived in some rough areas it is not the same as being brought up in them.
It has been an eye-opening and humbling experience for me. I have to say I am pleased that my morning routine of meditation is paying off, I haven’t lost my temper and I have remained calm with the children (crying in the toilets after wards doesn’t count!). It is getting easier now that I am in my fourth week there – they are getting to know and trust me a little more and are being slightly less testing in the lessons.
I don’t want this to turn into a teaching blog – I am thinking about setting up a separate blog for that (it won’t be linked to this one if I do as that will be a professional one), but I just wanted to explain my absence and promise that I will get around for the lack of posts. I am on summer holidays as of Thursday afternoon (woo hoo!), so I will hopefully be posting more. Don’t forget to look at my last post – Oh bunt off!